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November 02nd, 2016

11/2/2016

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As I make the final adjustments to my latest novel A Sensible Girl before publication, a process which seems to take an inordinately long time, I once again find myself asking the question - why write? 
 
I’m not sure how long it took to write A Sensible Girl as it was written over a number of years and in several different countries.  I’ve just spent many months editing it, and then hours reading and re-reading it in both ebook and paperback format, in the hope that in a few weeks, when it’s launched into the world, someone will read it. But does that make all those countless hours of thinking and writing, and then agonising over what I’ve written worth while?  And, as I’ve considered many times before, can I stop writing?  
 
I’ve been making up stories for as long as I can remember.  As I small child I was happy to play by myself because, in my head, I was never alone, as my world was full of imaginary people going on great adventures.  My imagination was such that one of the characters - called Fred - became so real, that, much to the irritation of my family, I insisted he went everywhere with me.  On at least one occasion I became almost hysterical when Fred did not get into the car beside me and my father drove off leaving him behind. 
 
At what point Fred packed his bags and went to live in the mind of another imaginative child I’m not sure.  It was probably soon after I started school, as the robustness of the school playground is no place for imaginary friends.  Not that I stopped living in a world of make believe.  Once I learnt to read, I lost myself in other people’s imaginings and read everything I could get my hands on, whether it was deemed suitable for a child or not. 
 
This was in an age when ‘bookish’ girls were not really encouraged.  Perhaps in order to get me to take up more girlish pursuits, a well-meaning adult would occasionally give me a doll rather than a book as a present.  I must confess that any such doll - particularly the pretty blond kind dressed in frilly pink clothes - was swiftly dispatched, either by decapitation or another gruesome method.  I was the kind of child who preferred fairy tales by the Brothers Grimm to those of Hans Christian Anderson.
 
From an early age I also developed a passion for books, not merely as the source of stories, but also as objects.  When I look up from my desk and see books lined up on the shelves in my study, I feel surrounded by friends, and, in a life which has contained an awful lot of travelling and moving house, books have always travelled with me.  They are almost the first thing to be unpacked in a new home or even in a hotel room, although these days, I travel with fewer physical books as I usually take novels in ebook form.  
 
But I digress from story writing.  Even at primary school I had ambitions to find a wider readership for my stories than my teacher.  I think I was about 7 or 8 when my older sister, who had decided to be both the editor-in-chief and illustrator of her own magazine, accepted some of my stories for publication.  The magazine was sold to family and neighbours and the first edition came with a free gift of a lavender bag, painstakingly made by me as a price for ‘printing’ my stories. 
 
Not long after this, my father was posted to the Middle East and I won a scholarship to boarding school, where my attempts at fiction writing became more ambitious.  It was the early 1960s, the Cold War was at its height and spies - real and imagined - were everywhere.  Not that you would have known that if you were a pupil at my school, where boarders had little contact with the world outside, and what contact we had,  was strictly mediated by the nuns.  However, once a week we were allowed to watch two television programmes after supper: Top of the Pops followed by The Man from U.N.C.L.E.

We quickly divided into two rival camps - fans of the Russian spy, Illya Kuryakin, played by British actor David McCallum, and fans of the American spy, Napoleon Solo, played by Robert Vaughn.  Whether it was Illya’s mop of blond hair, reminiscent of early Beatles’ haircuts, or the fact that he was British, Illya was by far the more popular of the two.  I was in the minority as a fan of the dark-haired Napoleon Solo.     
 
Those weekly editions of The Man from U.N.C.L.E. coupled with seeing the first James Bond movie, Dr No, under the desert sky at night in an open air cinema, resulted in my spending a good part of my adolescence writing terrible spy novels starring tall, ruggedly handsome, dark-haired heroes.  I inflicted these novels on a captive audience of fellow boarders.  If any of you are out there reading this, please accept my abject apologies.  I suspect reading my early novels was akin to the tortures I imposed on my heroes. 
 
I began this blog in an attempt to explain why I write, but perhaps I should leave the explanation to others far better qualified than me.  George Orwell took a rather dark view of the process but I cannot help but agree with his summation:
 
All writers are vain, selfish and lazy, and at the bottom of their motives there lies a mystery.  Writing a book is a horrible, exhausting struggle, rather like a long bout of some painful illness.  One would never undertake such a thing if one were not driven on by some demon whom one can neither resist nor understand.  For all one knows that demon is simply the same instinct that makes a baby squall for attention.
 
However, Gore Vidal - a man not known for usually being parsimonious with words - for once put it more simply:
 
A writer is someone who writes, that’s all.  You can’t stop it; you can’t make yourself do anything else but that.
 

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The eye of distance

1/20/2016

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Back in the 1990s, driven by the desire to carve out a space to write without any distractions, I took myself off to a Greek island for six months.  If this conjures up images of hot sunshine, bottles of ice cold Retsina and Lotus-eating in Arcadia, think again.  The island I chose for my writer’s exile is in the Northern Aegean and I went there in late autumn and again in early Spring, when gales and driving rain can cut off electricity and bring down telephone lines.  Most of the time it was very cold, and my tiny, white-washed room, built to accommodate summer visitors, had no central heating.
          There were days when the rain seeped through, round and under the doors and windows, forming puddles faster than I could mop them up, when I wondered why I had chosen to stay in a place with one hot water tap and a shower which dripped rather than showered, and why I had forsaken Marks and Spencer’s ready prepared food department for wrestling with a dead cuttlefish.  The fisherman at the harbour who sold it to me assured me it would be delicious.  All I had to do was to remove the large central bone which, as he demonstrated with a quick motion of his hand, was easy.  However, my increasingly desperate efforts eventually caused the bone to shoot out of the cuttlefish and embed itself in the ceiling. 
            As a single, foreign woman, living in a small fishing village out of season, I attracted a lot of curiosity, if not to say notoriety, and all my movements were watched and solemnly reported back to me.  Why, for instance, did I go for such long walks and refuse the lifts that were so kindly offered to me?  Surely no-one would choose to walk when they could ride in a car?  And didn’t I realise what danger I was in when I walked into the hills?  When I asked why, looks would be cast from side to side, and the voice of the speaker would sink to a whisper: shepherds spent months alone with their sheep in the hills and the sight of a lone woman might be too much for them – after all, they were Greek men.  My landlady chaperoned her elderly husband when he came to my room to fix anything, and if any man, and by that I mean any male over the age of fourteen, came to my room alone, the news was around the village within minutes.  On the other hand, I left my door unlocked without fear, day or night, and there were days of brilliant sunshine, when the sea and the sky were of a blue so intense that it hurt my eyes and made me euphorically glad to be alive.   
            My latest novel Mothers, Sisters & Other Lovers grew out of that trip as well as many others I made to Greece, but the novel didn’t really take shape until I was back in England.  Sometimes, it’s necessary to take a step back in order to see what is there.              Freya Stark, the doyenne of travellers and travel writers, put it aptly when she wrote that writers, like painters, need to stand back from what they want to see in order to get the perspective right.  She called it: ‘the eye of distance’.
            Distance brings clarity of vision because it frees the mind from the petty tyrannies of everyday life, among them ‘the pram in the hall’ which the literary critic and writer Cyril Connolly so famously dubbed ‘the enemy of art’.  Now the more cynical might say that this proves what they have always thought - that writers are feckless creatures - but it is this very attitude that has driven many writers to seek more amenable and less judgemental climes, where literature is viewed not just acceptable, but as a laudable vocation.  That is not to deny that sex, that most basic of human drives has not played its part.  In the past, the more lax sexual and social mores of ‘abroad’ were the reason that many a writer chose to live in self-imposed exile.
            Lawrence Durrell, whose books, like those of his animal-loving brother, Gerald Durrell, first fired me with the desire to be a writer, as well as to go to Greece, voiced similar feelings to Freya Stark in his great work about expatriate life, The Alexandrian Quartet.  At the beginning of the first book in the series, Justine, which is set on a Greek island, he wrote: ‘I have had to come so far away from it in order to understand it all.’
             Perhaps that is why some of the writers most famed for their literary evocations of their native countries spent much of their writing lives abroad – distance distils memories and stories to their essence.  James Joyce, that most quintessential of Irishmen, left Ireland with his partner Nora Barnacle when he was twenty.  He wrote Dubliners in Trieste and Ulysses in three different European cities.  Yet to readers, it is as though he wrote them while standing on a street corner in Dublin, drinking in the tastes and smells of that fair city.
             This does not mean that to write a great book you have to travel, far from it.  Many great writers never move any great distance from the house or the social milieu into which they were born, witness Jane Austen.  However, it is their imagination, as well as their ability to see with the ‘eye of distance’, that allows them to make a universe of their world, a universe that can be recognised by anyone who reads them, whether they live in Manchester or Mumbai.  
             The New Zealand writer, Janet Frame, whose autobiography was so memorably translated into the film An Angel at My Table by Jane Campion, the director of The Piano, understood that.  Frame spent a winter in Ibiza in the 1960s, and in the second part of her autobiography, An Envoy from Mirror City, she described the glittering image of Ibiza town mirrored in the sea.  However, it was not the city she was seeking: ‘I knew that whatever the outward phenomenon of light, city, and sea, the real mirror city lay within as the city of the imagination.’
             It is this ‘city of the imagination’ that all writers seek, wherever they are.
 
(This post is an edited version of an article that appeared in the British Airways ‘Highlife’ magazine in January 1999)

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George Orwell, nostalgia and me

3/26/2015

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I would not usually refer to myself alongside a great writer like George Orwell, however, should you search for my second novel, ‘Coming Up For Air’, by title alone, if you do not pay attention, you might end up with George Orwell’s 1939 novel of the same name.  I was not aware of this until after my novel was first published in paperback, when a friend almost bought Orwell’s novel when she intended to buy mine.  This sent me into a panic.  What if George Orwell’s literary estate sued me for stealing his title?  How could I prove that I hadn’t read his novel or even knew of its existence?  I have read ‘Animal Farm’ and ‘1984’ as well as others of his books, so how come I had never heard of this one and yet still call myself a writer?  

As I steeled myself to be hauled through the courts and made bankrupt, another friend pointed out that there is no copyright on titles. A little research proved this to be correct – there is indeed, no copyright on titles.  According to the UK Copyright Service: ‘names, titles, short phrases, (and also colours), are not considered unique or substantial enough to be awarded copyright protection in their own right’.

My sense of relief was quickly followed by a touch of pique.  If a title does not spring out whilst you are writing a book, a good title can be notoriously difficult to come up with, and I had prided myself on coming up with a really original title, but someone had already thought of it.  The only comfort I could take was that at least that someone was one of 20th century Britain’s most provocative and original writers.

So, when revising my novel to prepare it for publication as an ebook, I decided it was about time I read Orwell’s version of ‘Coming Up For Air’, and despite the occasional sharp intake of breath when the language verges on the misogynistic and anti-Semitic (not untypical of the time but that still does not make it right), I’m glad I did. 

It is set in 1939 and war is fast approaching, but on the morning on which the novel opens, the middle-aged protagonist, George, or, as he is better known, Tubby  Bowling, is more concerned about the new set of false teeth he is to collect that day.  Born just before the turn of the century into a horse-drawn, semi-rural, Edwardian world, of lower middle-class poverty, George now owns his own house with an indoor bathroom and a car, a state unheard of for people of his class when he was born.  His relative good fortune is the result of him serving in the First World War when he was promoted ‘above his station’ to be trained as an officer, not on merit, but because, unlike so many young men, he was lucky enough to survive the slaughter of the trenches.

George knows he is lucky.  He is also lucky in that although he is not usually a betting man, he has just won seventeen pounds on a horse race.  However, George is unhappy.  He is married to a wife he doesn’t really love, has two children who drive him mad.  His discontent with life crystallises into a plan to deceive his wife into thinking he is going away for a few days on a business trip for the insurance company for which he works, and instead spend his winnings on revisiting the small rural town of his birth and the haunts of his childhood which he remembers as a time of carefree, endless summers.

So George sets off, full of nostalgia for a past he believes was so much better than the present, only to find that everything has changed.  The small town where he was born has become a huge urban sprawl of new-built housing estates; the magical pond where he fished as a boy has been filled in; but even more disappointingly, he meets no-one who remembers him.  This last is particularly difficult because with his new set of teeth which make him look much younger, his car and his natty outfit – despite his expanded waistline, George still likes to think he cuts a fine figure – he had hoped to show off how far he had gone up in the world, but sadly, there is no-one to appreciate him.

George is an everyman/woman figure in that he, like many people, look back to their childhood and the past as a time when somehow, everything was better.  Nostalgia is an easy suit of armour to don when the present makes us unhappy or fearful.  When George looks with horror at how much the world – his world – has changed and not for the better, isn’t he echoed by many people who believe today’s world is changing both too fast and for the worse?  Orwell’s novel is a powerful reminder that, even before the Second World War, peoples’ lives were changing at an incredible pace – the unimaginable becoming common place.

Set 60 years apart, one on the brink of the cataclysm of the Second World War, the other at the approach of the millennium, the two novels have little in common on first reading.  Yet while George ‘Tubby’ Bowling and my protagonist, TV producer, Freddie Daniels, are worlds apart, they are both characters who have problems with commitment and attempt to run away from reality until life finally jolts them into making a choice.  They also both revisit their childhood memories only to learn they were not quite as they remembered.  For Freddie, turning 40 does not mean automatically getting false teeth as it did for many of George’s generation.  However, despite many medical breakthroughs, there are still some biological facts of life that women must face once they pass 30, whilst the social attitudes to women who are childless show little sign of changing.

If I dare, one more similarity with George Orwell – he wrote ‘Coming Up For Air’ in Morocco, having been advised to go to a warm climate for his health.  I wrote a good part of my novel during a 6-month stay on a Greek island, a place which also provided the inspiration for my next novel: ‘Mothers, Sisters and Other Lovers’ which will be out this summer.          

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On stunned penguins and writing 'Acquired Tastes'

12/30/2014

 
Acquired Tastes was my first novel and some elements of the story were inspired by my time as a TV researcher and producer.  However, I emphasise the word 'inspired'.  None of the characters are based on real people. I went into TV in 1979, and worked on current affairs programmes about London’s Black and Gay communities, religion and women, the closure of mental hospitals and illegal gypsy camps among many.

However, after a few years, I was assigned to work on other, less serious programmes, including what was meant to be an all-woman chat show which provided some farcical moments like the man who disguised himself as a woman to get into the audience.  How could security not have noticed him with his badly applied makeup, wig askew, towering several inches awkwardly above everyone else?

On another night, a guest taking part in a discussion suddenly slipped seemingly lifeless to the floor in front of a horrified audience, momentarily rendering the host of the show speechless.  However, rather than dead, the guest turned out to be drunk.  We had been told this guest might have a little problem so we had diplomatically guided her away from the drinks in the green room, but nobody had reckoned on her drinking before she arrived at the studio.  It was a sobering lesson in never underestimating the effect of hot studio lights on alcohol. 

And then there was the King Penguin who was to be the star guest on a pilot for a series about animals.  Perhaps the news that it was to be the star of the show turned the penguin’s head because it refused to travel in a cage and arrived in a taxi together with its keeper.  As the researcher assigned to look after this particular ‘guest’, what else could I do but take it to a dressing room?  Unfortunately its keeper nipped off to the bar and left it alone whereupon it started to protest rather noisily.  Hearing the strange sounds, a security guard barged through the door sending the penguin flying which is unfortunate, because penguins can’t fly.   The bird was knocked unconscious, but not before it shat all over the floor in fright. It fell to me to revive it, clean up its extremely smelly mess and still get it to waddle into the studio and make its entrance on cue to thunderous applause.  I think it was about this point that I began to reconsider whether life in television was really for me.

When I sat down to write Acquired Tastes, I intended to produce a 'serious' novel about television and the media in general. However, somewhere between conception and birth - perhaps still haunted by visions of a stunned penguin - the story took on a blackly comic edge and, as the characters in my book took shape, their antics became wilder and wilder. 

Looking back, Acquired Tastes was ahead of its time - but only just. In creating a fictional late-night reality show on which people could act out their sexual fantasies, I pushed the boundaries of explicit sex as well as bad taste on TV further than I thought anyone would ever dare go in the early 1990s.  However my fictional show has long been outstripped in the nature of its sexual content by real TV shows.  

In the same year my novel was published, as part of the publicity for my book, I appeared on a programme whose set was uncannily like the set I had invented for Forbidden Fruit. The series was called The Good Sex Guide Late and it was presented by former punk singer turned actor and TV presenter, Toyah Wilcox.  Since then there have been many other programmes in the same vein, including the recent Sex Box presented by Mariella Frostrup, during which couples had sex in a box before discussing it with studio experts.  Having produced the Channel 4 show Right to Reply in the 1980s for which the Video Box was invented so that viewers could record themselves for TV, is it surprising that I sometimes suffer from a severe case of deja vu when I see what is on our TV screens these days?

    Some occasional musings on writing, books, life and gardening.


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